this is a period of stress for mi, as well as for most of the people out there who will be viewing my humble blog. as i had nothing to do, i decided to blog a little be4 i start my journey to sch( to study i hope xD ).
i tried to study on several attempts, in my veri home which usually contain onli two "souls" in the afternoon, and in sch where my sch mates hang ard to do their part for A lvls.
at home, my mum and aunt went working. my bro is either out on pw or pad-tor-ing with his gf. the two "souls" i mentioned, will be mi ( of cuz ), and....... my veri computer, a awful distraction to had. Once in a while, i successful chuck this "soul" aside and did my studying in a lonely way, where my thoughts became my onli distraction. 6 yrs it had being since my mum became a widow. time seems to fly. but theres still some ans to my qns tat is not meant to be found out. wat type of person is he, the person i called father for 18 yrs ( minus away the infant stage ) ? am i like him in terms of his personality? if i am... i think he'll be a good father wont he? i regreted that i haven being sensible before his death, is it becuz im still young? or is it becuz i din noe he's abt to leave us?? a little of both ba, i'll nv find out anw. at least i noe there's one thing abt him that's similiar to mi, tat i'll like to keep as a secret between mi and him. xD my father likes to bring my family ( tis does not include my aunt and the computer ) to places tat he thinks the food is nice. i bet he love to see us eating, with delight, the food he bought. at shang hai, the place my dad set his last footings, my father, bed ridden, said to us a place nearby made delicious "xiao long bao" and wants us to go there to taste it. as maturity comes into mi, i finally understand how it felt for him, how much he would have hope tat he could jus drop out of that bed to bring the family to that place to taste tat delicacy, and how much i hope tat would have happened. At least, i and my bro should have done as he wished. but when a friend of his bought us to that place, we din went for the food and went for something fun. i regretted not eating tat "xiao long bao" cuz i think that he would have been more relieved if he noes that we had tasted it. we would have sort of granted his "last wish"..
i swear to myself.. if my memories dun fail mi, i will travel to that sorrowful place again to taste that "xiao long bao". one day, i will.
lol. feeling better to write all this out. exams is on the way, i can see the front light of the train coming at mi. and after tis 10 days of travel, i'll be delighted to see the light at the rear. Good Luck to all friends who is taking this ride with mi. btw, thanks again to those who remembered my birthday. :)
sorry tis entry wont b entertaining as always xD
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